Is there anything

more gut wrenching than a friend who's in a bad emotional place and not being able to help them in any way? It breaks my heart to see one of my closest friends in such a bad place. He's so hurt, and so many people expect so much of him. He can't heal, he can't escape his own head. He's so far away I feel totally helpless. I know he needs more time to deal with everything, I just wish everyone else saw that too. Thank goodness he's moving back home soon. That might be just the medicine he needs. Hopefully he'll get to stop here on his drive to NY and visit and see the new place. That would be the best thing ever.

On another sad note, I finished my LO for Stand Up And Scrap challenge #3. The challenge was to use song lyrics and interesting typography. Lately I've had one song stuck in my head, so I decided to go wtih that one. Except the topic it pertains to is really hard for me. To talk about, scrap about, even think about. The song is "Hear You Me" by Jimmy Eat World, and it reminds me of my best friend Jaclyn. Jaclyn passed away 5.5 years ago in a car accident. We never found out what caused it though. I miss her so much sometimes. I still can't bring myself to go to her grave. I don't know what I'd say. Sometimes when I'm sitting peacefully, just relaxing, I say a prayer to her and make sure she knows I miss her. Scrapping that song was so hard for me. I wanted the page to come out perfect. I'm very satisfied with the page though. Whenever I get it printed I'll have to add a tag or journal on the back of it or something. I didn't include anything other than the song lyrics. I'd share it, but that's not allowed until the contest is over.

I also finished my desktop for October. It came out awesome and I'm working on a template to give away. So stay tuned!

In other, happier news, Jordan has decided that he hates all of the churches in our area and now wants to get married in NY. And at West Point even! It's not what I really want, but it's his wedding too. I won't make him get married somewhere he doesn't want to. It's our wedding, not just mine. He's got too many opinions to just ignore anyway, lol. So we're going to have to go to NY sometime soon and get that ball rolling.

I spent the weekend driving around the east coast and had a GREAT time. A friend flew in from OK as a big surprise and it was so fantastic. We played guitar hero for a zillion hours and I'm now totally addicted, lol. Jordan won't let me buy it yet though, so I might have to wait til Christmas. But I'm mildly obsessed with it now and can't wait to visit someone who has it, lol. I have no shame ;o)

I think that's about all for now. Kim has a new kit coming out and I've got a LO almost done with it, so I'll post that tomorrow. Til then....
*Hugs* n love

~Col :o)


Kim B said...

Hey girl- And yeah- I've been there with the friend tooo far away and feeling helpless- She's in Canada now ( moved there 2 years ago) and I wish I was closer to just be a decent shoulder ( not having to watch the phone call times!)- Would love to see your LO when you are allowed to post it.
Sending you HUGE HUGS

Shannon said...

Sorry to hear 'bout your friend...that's a tough spot to be in. Good luck on the Stand Up and Scrap contest! :)
We didn't get married in a church 'cause DH was raised Catholic and I'm Baptist...so we used a Historic Mansion turned B&B and had a very dear family friend perform the ceremony. So I totally understand including Josh in the planning. :)
Have a great weekend and there's something for you on my blog.